One of My Hardest Lessons
Or ... Expressions in The Key of TMI😅
Good people,
I wish you a great morning, and for those of you in my Village of Five Parks community and surrounding areas ... Happy Snow Day! It may not be much and it may not be enough, but it is, nonetheless, most appreciated. Water, like the air that we breathe is essential to our ability to survive, yeah?🙄
My friends, when I was a child, young and yet innocent, I lost my mother. And from that point of my life, merely 7 years and 24 days in, it was my one aim in life to never lose anything else, EVER AGAIN. To the point that if I received a gift for Christmas, I would, upon opening it, make sure to save the box and wrapping paper in which that gift was contained. As I aged to older, I sometimes simply put the gift away and didn't even bother opening it. I was that determined that nothing else would ever get away from me. My plan and the actions that I took to secure success for that same plan, failed, "of course and miserably."
My brokenness "achieved by way of failing," opened me up to much disappointment and misunderstanding. I was that little kid, no different from millions of other little kids who wanted everything to be perfect and then for that perfection to NEVER change or end.
I was completely lost and finding out "7 years and 25 days in" that my life didn't matter to, and was, in fact, resented by, my "father," sealed the deal on it taking "two forevers" to find my way and learn to love myself appropriatley.
Finding out that my father was in no way, shape or form a friend to my life and well-being was another "loss" in a series of losses that would threaten, literally, the life, mine, that I wasn't sure was worth even trying to live.
Thank goodness for the people in my life who loved me and I daresay would have missed me had I "ceased to exist to their reality."
And thank goodness for my mother's blood that courses through my veins even today. That blood guaranteed that even in my darkest hours I would continue to care about and love others, no matter how clumsily. A "win" for me, if ever there was one.
For years and years, because of my "search in earnest" to find answers to questions that were relentless in their quest to stay me awake throughout the night, and tired when I did finally surrender to my innner alarm clock urging me to rise and meet the new day's sun, I survived.
As I've aged to older, I have learned to give more, care a little deeper, and love better. I am, I admit, a work in progress, but I "love my job."
When I was a "baby," I thought that ALL parents loved their children, I thought that ALL love was forever ... and that friendships could never sour ... I was wrong.
But that "truth discovered" has not diminished my love of the life, mine, that I make new and positive discoveries about, every minute of every moment that I continue my journey on this earth.
What I am about to share with you, has helped me mightily in my quest to live my life instead of having my life, live me.
Maybe you'll see some value in it as well. I hope so:
Taken from Mindset Post:
The art of detachment:
"Nothing belongs to me.
It's all an experience.
True peace begins when we stop trying to own moments, people or things. Life becomes lighter when we understand that everything we encounter is simply passing through us and not meant to be possessed. The people we love, the pain we endure, the joy we feel, all of it is a part of a fleeting experience, meant to shape us, not define us. When we learn to observe without clinging, we stop suffering over what leaves and start appreciating what is. Nothing is truly ours and that is what makes every moment sacred. To live without attachment is not to live without love, but to love with freedom and awareness."
This I KNOW about myself I do now and always have lived my life and loved with the utmost enthusiasm. And I will NEVER stop doing such.
So, if you in some way, big or small, encounter my love, extended to you on the wings of a big laugh and a never-ending smile, please know, from my heart to yours, that it is "the real deal," okay?
Precious People, celebrate this life, your life, with your "whole you," moment to moment, for always and forever.
Much love and many blessings.
I am your friend, Joyce's boy,
aka "Fast Binky."🤣
❤️🙏❤️🎉